For Alia Naufal♥

biarlah perasaan ini tak terbalas, 

karena memang tidak harus dibalas. 

aku mencintaimu dengan ikhlas♥

I Can't Wait for You

Every time I close my eyes to go to sleep I pick out my favourite memory of us. Of you.

Sometimes it is when I was lying on you and we were laughing so hard that we laughed even more just because it was so fun to laugh. Your smile.

Sometimes it is when we hanged out first time. We were watching Tangled and you predicted every single thing. The way you irritate me.

Sometimes it is when we were on our way home to your place after a night out, both drunk and I asked you if you would be hung over the next day and you replied “As long as you are next to me it doesn’t matter how bad I am. I’ll be the luckiest guy anyway.”. The way you made me feel.

Sometimes it is when we were walking and you suddenly took my hand as it would have been the most natural thing in the world. How much you mattered to me.

I’ll miss you so much and I will never forget you. But I can’t wait for you. Mostly because I can't wait for someone that doesn’t know what he wants. I told you how I felt but you never told me what you felt. I can only guess and I’m guessing – as much as I’m hoping- that you feel the same way I do for you. But guessing and hoping is not something that will keep me waiting for you. I would need you to confirm it. I would need you to say that you love me back. But you can’t and that is why I can’t wait three years for you.

I’m sorry and I hope life will treat you well.

Yours truly.

I Hate You,I Love You,I Miss You

Dear you,

I hate
...you.
...that you call me.
...that you belong to someone else.
...myself or leaving.
...myself for never telling you how I feel.
...us

I love
...you
...you for everything you are.
...the memories you created with me.
...us

I miss
...you
...the way you smile
...our long conversations
...playing video games
...cocktails at our favorite bar
...us

I hate you. I love you. I miss you...

-Me

Think of You

When I'm With You

you make me forget the world and make me forget the people
if i go around the world i will never find any lover like you
if i say that i love you,you deserve more than my love
if i leave you for a second,i miss your eyes
embrace me and stay with me
enchant me and fall in my love,let's live some pleasant days
and suddenly i feel in your love without thinking
you've taken me from all people,and i forgot the world with you
i'm keeping you in my eyes,and the world proves this
im beside you and i love you
i couldn't forget you
i hope that my life becomes longer,and i'll keep loving you forever
i always dream that im with you
forgive me ..

Kamis Ceria. No More Mellow Say No to Galau♥

Aliaaaaaaaaaaaaa :3 aaaaaaa kamis itu the lucky day banget yaaahh... senengnya nggak terkira bisa ngobrol berdua sm Alia eh terus mukanya Alia lucu bgt nyengar-nyengir gituuuuu mana salting terus caranya dia ngomong sama aku tuh aduh astaufirulloh bikin terbang :D Makasih banget ya alyoongg udh syg sm aku,udh mau jadi temenku... matanyaaa yg bercahaya mata yg indah yang baru aku liat kali ini rambutnya yang cool bgt,cueknya yang memancarkan ke-gentle an nya aduh sempurna bgt deh. pokoknya hari kamis tuh aw aw aw... galau yg berlarut-larut kini berganti bahagia yang meluap-luap 

Big Thanks and Love for Alia♥

Mother♥

Dedicated to my Mom. I love you.

"My mother never gave up on me. I messed up in school so much they were sending me home, but my mother sent me right back." ~Denzel Washington

"There is no way to be a perfect mother, and a million ways to be a good one." 

~Jill Churchill

"There never was a woman like her. She was gentle as a dove and brave as a lioness". 

~Andrew Jackson

I remember my mother's prayers and they have always followed me.  They have clung to me all my life.  ~Abraham Lincoln

A mother is a person who seeing there are only four pieces of pie for five people, promptly announces she never did care for pie.  ~Tenneva Jordan

 

 

I Love You Mom... I Promise To Make You Proud of Me :)

100 reasons why I Love You

1. Your loyalty to me and everyone or everything that matters to you
2. Your compassion for everyone around you
3. Your selflessness
4. Your integrity
5. Your strength
6. Your devotion
7. How you are always 100% honest no matter what
8. Your kindness
9. The way you always try to help others
10. How you always stand up for what you believe in
11. Your generosity
12. Your confidence
13. The way that you always look for and find the positive in everything
14. Your optimism
15. The fact that you know exactly where you are going in life and will do whatever it takes to get there
16. Your courage even in the face of adversity
17. Your boldness
18. Your gentleness with me
19. How you are always understanding with me even when I don’t deserve it
20.  How much you and I share in common together about everything
21. How you always can make me laugh or smile even at times when I don’t want to
22. Your zaniness
23. The fact that you refuse to ever completely grow up
24. Your crazy voices, sounds, and imitations
25. How you are always kind to animals
26. The fact that you aren’t afraid to cry
27. How you always help me when I need or ask you to and sometimes even when I don’t ask
28. How you are always concerned about me and my well-being
29. The way you hold me
30. The way you liven up a room just by being in it
31. How much you’ve taught me about life and myself
32. Your intelligence
33. The fact that you are good at fixing things or putting things together by hand
34. Your zest for life
35. Your electronic and technology savvy
36. Your excellent people skills
37. Your amazing voice
38. Your awesome hair
39. Your craziness
40. Your incredible baby blue eyes
41. Your strong hands
42. Your love of life
43. Your uncompromising belief in God, family, and country
44. The fact that you would make the best father anyone could ever ask for or hope to have
45. The way you walk
46. The way you talk
47. Your wackiness
48. The fact that there is nobody else in the world like you and nobody will ever come close
49. Your vast knowledge about everything
50. How you are always good at everything
51. The annoying fact that you are right 90+% of the time
52. The amazing new experiences that I’ve shared for the first time with you and only you
53. The way you make me feel about myself
54. How you always tell me and show me everyday how much you love me
55. How you don’t mind holding my hand or showing me affection even in public
56. How you sometimes give up things you’ve wanted just for my benefit
57. The way you kiss me and touch me
58. The fact that you were willing to take a chance on me
59. The way you always encourage and believe in me
60. Your faithfulness
61. Your true sense of honor
62. The fact that you know how to be a real man
63. The sweet gifts you’ve given to me
64. The heart-touching things you’ve written for me
65. The way you’ve opened up your heart and life to me
66. The fact that I learn new amazing things about you everyday
67. The way you look at me that makes me melt inside
68. The love you’ve always shown me
69. The way you always say awesome things about me to other people
70. How much excitement you bring into my life everyday
71. How you always bring out the best in me
72. How you never take life for granted
73. The way you always inspire me
74. The fact that you are as much of a dreamer as me
75. The fact that you are without a doubt my true soul mate
76. The way that you know how to not take life too seriously and live for the moment
77. The fact that you are the first and only person I’ve ever loved and the first person who ever truly loved me
78. How forgiving you are
79. How you’re not afraid to be a risk-taker
80. Your incredible big heart
81. How you always know what to say and how to say it in any situation
82. How you always open doors for me, help me with the groceries, and take the garbage out for me
83. How you always try to scare me and the dogs when we least expect it
84. The fact that I know you will be one of the most successful men in the world someday because no one deserves it more than you
85. The amazing way you always seem to be able to read my mind
86. How we always still say or do the exact same thing at the same time
87. Your extreme patience with me even when I push it to the limit sometimes
88. Your charm and charisma
89. Your wit and wisdom
90. How you always comfort me or give me a shoulder to cry on when I need it
91. How I know you’ll always be here for me through good times and bad no matter what
92. The extraordinary amazing things that always happen to us that never happen to anyone else
93. The fact that I know you are my real true soul mate and we were destined to be together
94. How awesome you have been to my mom and dad and even my pets and how they all love you so much too
95. How cute and adorable you can be
96. Your determination and conviction and how once you set your mind on something that nobody can change it
97. Your incredible dreams and visions for our future that will come true
98. How much you know about me now and that you’ve seen both my good sides and bad and that you still love me anyway
99. How much I know you loved your mom and how well you handled her passing even though it was the hardest thing you’ve ever been through and how much I admire you for that

last point, 100. Every little single detail about you that makes you who you are and the fact that you are the best boyfriend in the whole world

Hug Me and Tell Me Everything Will be fine!!!

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Ingin memulai perjalanan mati suri semalam tanpa mimpi

I'm starving with loneliness

My Fake Story Love♥

Memang menyakitkan ya "mengagumi tanpa dicintai" sampai kapan ya akan seperti ini? menunggu dan menunggu dengan harapan yang lama kelamaan akan hancur. Ya meskipun aku selalu bisa menata ulang harapan dan mimpi itu. tapi, tanpa kamu tau kan Al? kalau aku capek bermimpi bahagia sama kamu. Memang nggak tepat untuk memikirkan cinta pada saat ini toh cinta itu akan datang di waktu yg indah dan tempat yang indah pula, yang selalu aku harapkan cinta itu datang dari Alia. hm mungkin aku terlalu berkhayal,terlalu nge fly untuk berharap setinggi itu. Aku ini masih tau diri aku ini masih bisa "mengaca" aku tu cuma cewek goblok,gendut,jelek yang jatuh cinta sm seorang cowok tampan,pinter dan sempurna. hahaha pastinya Alia nggak level ya sama cewek kyk aku gini? Goblok. ah mimpi yang terlalu tinggi ini gila ini nggak pantas untuk kamu impikan Salsa. Seorang Alia mana mau sama seorang Salsa kyk kamu gini?? Tapi sekarang sudah terlanjur. Alia sudah tau apa rasaku sm dia. Aku malu, aku merasa aku tidak pantas untuk mendapatkan Alia. Ya Allah jika Alia memang yang terbaik untukku dan memang cinta itu ada dekatkanlah kami Ya Allah namun jika memang sebaliknya tolong jauhkan Alia dariku.... Aku ikhlas lilahita'ala jika suatu saat nanti memang mimpi itu akan lenyap dan tak akan bisa aku tata ulang kembali.. Aku ikhlas Alia sama yang lain.. Aku rela jika cinta ini memang tidak ada... Aku bahagia jika Alia bahagia untuk menjauh dariku... Segalanya apaun itu yang membuat Alia bahagia entah membenciku menolak cinta yang ada dariku . Aku ikhlas..ikhlas.. sungguh ikhlas..

Alia Naufal, You Know I love You Always dan forever♥♥

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It's not easy to be strong when you are weak.
It's not easy to be patient when you are restless.
It's not easy to be happy when you are depressed.
But It's not hard to lift up your hands in supplication to Allah and ask Allah to make everything alright... :)

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тнe ѕĸy ιѕɴ'т αlwαyѕ вlυe. тнe ѕυɴ doeѕɴ'т αlwαyѕ ѕнιɴe. ѕo ιт'ѕ oĸαy тo ғαll αpαrт ѕoмeтιмeѕ, вυт αlwαyѕ reмeмвer тo ɢeт υp αɢαιɴ.

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ιғ yoυ’re ɢoιɴɢ тo ѕтαy, ѕтαy ғorever. ιғ yoυ’re ɢoιɴɢ тo leαve, тнeɴ do ιт тodαy. ιғ yoυ’re ɢoιɴɢ тo cнαɴɢe, cнαɴɢe ғor тнe вeттer. αɴd ιғ yoυ’re ɢoιɴɢ тo тαlĸ, мαĸe ѕυre yoυ мeαɴ wнαт yoυ ѕαy.

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Boy,sometimes a girls silence is not because she is mad. Maybe she is giving you a chance to re-think your words and actions :)

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I dont wish to be everything to everyone, But I would like to be something to someoneツ

cuma dia yang bisa bikin aku galau too the max dan cuma dia yang bisa ngobatinya:3

Ini udah bener-bener deh ya temen-temen nyomblangin aku sama alia!! rasanya ya gini canggung berhari-hari nggak pernah ngomong bareng.. mau gini canggung mau duduk berdua takut di cie2in.terus harus gimana??aku bingung bgt sm alia waktu itu pgn bgt ngomong "Al,please jgn ngejauh gituuu" dan akhirnya aku beraniin tuh ngomong pas alia keluar kelas aku ngikutin dan nyoba biasa2 aja terus aku kan manggil alia ''al,aku mau ngomong bisa?" "ngomong?ngomong apa?" alia jawab gitu tuh. eh si maman kurang ajar pake muncul dan ngeledekin aku sm alai,,assshh udh deh hancur semua dan alia makin nggak peduli dan makin canggung gitu..jleb jleb jleb rasanya galau bgt sumpaaahhh sampek nangis dikelas dan temen2 juga sadar kalo aku nangis mereka juga ngehibur aku dan Alia cuma liatin aku sekilas2 gitu sampe dimas blg "cup cup saaa nggakusah nangiss suatu saat nanti km jg bakalan dpt yg lebih baik" trs aswin nyaut "iya sal cuma alia aja ditangisi" tita,tya,mbafi dan semuanyah juga nge supprot bgt!!! sampek malemnya tuh les mas anung dgn mata sembab curhat sessionII sm tita sambil nangis sesenggukan.. titatya nyoba ngehibur aku ngajakin ke rebupungkasan disitu aku cuma diem aja,,tita nyoba cerita2 lucu tapi ya gini aku nggak bisa ketawa lepas kyk biasanya.. Paginya hari kamis aku bangun agak kesiangan ya jelas lah pulang jam 10 malem dari mas anung dan nggak ada hasil..gila yaa??padahal itu TPM IPA-__- udah deh lengkap galaunya udh kesiangan,mana rasa penyesalan kenapa aku masih hidup pagi ini..kenapa harus ke sekolah buat ketemu alia aku nggak berani liat wajahnya alia Ya Allah....sekolah jam ke 1,2,3,4,5 aku masang muka cemberut yang nggak biasanyaa,yang biasanya aku ceria banget ngakak sana ngakak sini,lari kesana kesini begijigan kyk gitu eh hari itu aku diem aja .. ku liat tu muka sedihnya titatya yang liat aku galau.. dan sepertinya alia sadar kalau aku nggak kayak biasanya,dia sadar kalau ku jutekin dia. dan akhirnya jam pelajaran TIK pas ulangan aku kan duduk dibawah dan aku nggak nyadar kalau alia duduk persis di belakangku,,dan baru kali ini alia ngajak ngomong aku setelah berhari-hari kita diem2an "hee saa,,kandani sa" aku sadar itu suara alia sumpah adem ayem duduk sm alia tu denger dia ngomong di belakang telingaku persis.. udah deh liatin matanya cara dia mandangi mukaku.... dari jauh tita,tya,aswin,mbak chotim senyum lebar ke arah ku sambil tya bilang "udah ketemu kan obat galaunya" aku cuma membalas dengan senyum kecil dan senengnya lagi harapan2 yang hancur karena penggalauan yang pd dasarnya itu semua adalah pembodohan udah kembali lagi seperti semula.. karena si alia blg ke apriyani "aku biasa aja sm salsa,skrg ak lagi mikir UN.kalo udh saatnya masalah mau jadian sama salsa sih,mau-mau aja" uuuuuuhhhhhhhhhh love you so much:'3

Alia Naufal.. you know I love you always and forever<3

Happy Birthday Alia Naufal :')

tanggal 8 kemarin Alia ulang tahun... karena hari minggu dan nggak ketemu disekolah yaudah seninnya aku mau ngucapin eh tapi minggunya udh sih lewat facebook tapi :D dan taraaaa senin telah tiba dan ehm ehm deg deg ser mu bilang "happy birthday ya Al' ajaharus saltingny setengah mati.. Alia juga saltingnya pwol gitu,hehehe walaupun nggak ngasih apa2 dan nggak sesuai rencana but happy bgt deh liat alia seneng :') wlaupun akunya cuma ngasih foto kek beginian doang :') maaf ya Alyoongggggg:'3 love you so much:*

2012 yeayy!! A new day has come with love ♥

Alhamdullilah puji syukur kepada Allah SWT Tuhan semesta alam yang udah ngasih aku kehidupan selama 2011 yang lalu. dan karena Allah sayang sama aku jadi aku masih diberi kesempatan buat menjalani 2012 ini.hehehe
A new day has come with love in 2012. Yap! berharap banget di 2012 ini hari2 yang baru akan selalu ada dan Alhamdullilah banget kalau hari itu dipenuhi dengan cinta :) aku pengen di 2012 aku masih punya keluarga yang kayak gini,yang selalu kompak dan penuh kasih sayang. di 2012 ini aku mau tita&tya masih disampingku dengan kasih sayangnya mereka ke aku yg nggak akan berkurang. dengan tawa2 kecil yang selalu mengiringi kita bertiga. Ya Allah sungguh mereka semua adalah hal terindah yang pernah aku miliki. Aku nggak mau muluk2 sama Alia, ya maksudku aku nggak mau berharap deh ya di 2012 dia jadi milikku seutuhnya. walaupun nggak akan pernah nolak dia jadi milikku seutuhnya.hehe untuk masa depan ku tercinta,pokoknya aku harus bisa banggain ibu dan bapak!! aku nggak mau nyusahin mereka yang udah bekerja keras buat aku! aku harus lulus UN dan bukan sekedar lulus dengan embel2 nilai2 yg udah diolah biar aku bisa lulus. NEM!! yap aku nggak boleh bikin ibu dan bapak susah cari sekolah buat aku Ya Allah,\. Aku bakalan bekerja keras untuk itu. 2012 please be my lucky year!! Amin ya Robbal'alamin :)